SOLD!!

Before I make any final decisions about the house, I had to ask my brother & sister if they wanted it, after all, they grew up here also. My brother said "Yes."

That's one less task I have to think about before I escape.

Today I was listening to lectures from yet another Happiness Guru; he said many of the same things that others have said. It dawned on my that humans have been seeking happiness since the time of Buddha; or a least they been looking to cease their suffering. Yet, most people are still unhappy most of the time.

This of course got me thinking about me, because after all, our lives are primarily about us and whether I'm happy. I don't think about my happiness unless the topic comes up, which i think is a good sign. For instance, I don't sit around and ponder how to be happy, nor do I wish for it. I do however set goals that I believe would benefit my psyche - and maybe that's just another way of thinking about increasing my happiness... which would imply that I already have it... and that answers that... I think.

I just declared in my mind that I will be happy despite the odds, but of course I don't see it as a challenge, or a punishment to some entity trying to keep it from me.

I think happiness has become and industry because it's a fundamental concept that has been made difficult to grasp and attain because it's been overly studied, commodified and packaged into 1 hour to 90 minute power point presentations.

Okay.. so much for this rant. I am not going to overtly pursue happiness, I think I'll just continue to explore, be curious and imagine, happiness is always just over my shoulder and sometimes it rubs me on the back just to remind me it's still there.

Less than 220 days now.