Don't Miss Me

I want to tell my friends not to miss me. It seems kind of cold and heartless, but to me it's practical.

More than likely, I have little if any idea why people like me or what I do for them in live face-to-face moments. It might be the way i make them feel; maybe a laugh or good company. I tend to talk a lot, maybe that's it. I've been told I'm entertaining, that could be it also. It's possible that there isn't a single it, but a combination of factors. What I call magic.

Maybe it is a matter of resonance; vibrations; the pleasure of being with like-minded people on the same frequency. Our organisms move towards pleasure and away from pain.

Maybe I can figure out what they might miss about me, by thinking about what I've been missing about them. Most of my friends are otherwise occupied with careers, relationships, academic goals, family - the usual suspects.  Many have left the area so the days of random gatherings are over. Families - as I know so well - restructure our priorities and we have to divide our time between the desires of family members and friends. Most of those goals and that lifestyle is behind me now, so I'm vibrating at a different frequency. I have more free time, more freedom and fewer people to share it with.

The Fram

Hmmm. Could be.

The point is, situations and opportunities and time are aligning to create a chance for me to get out of the city I've called home all my life. An uncomfortable home, but home nonetheless. People have told me they'd miss me and I don't know how to respond. "Thank you for saying that'? "I'll miss you too"? "I've been missing what we've been for the last several years"? Do I say that? I want to say, "Don't miss me. Everything I've been for the better part of the last decade will still be there... on the net. In social media. In status updates, selfies, and video clips." 

I'm not pointing fingers, if I were the proverbial three would be pointing at me. I'm a self-styled anti-social loner yet at the same time cherish my friends and respect their priorities. I don't throw parties or DJ events anymore and I don't invite people over to my constantly-in-renovation-mode house for cocktails or movie nights (no furniture, no TV, no video games). If I really wanted to make new friends, pursue new relationships or anything else social, it wouldn't be difficult. I'm pretty good at it, too good... and I promised myself I wouldn't get wrapped up in anything that would keep me here. That's the responsibility I take for my distance and insularity.

The Funky Luau.. a Framly Tradition

Bottom line - I'm leaving. Best friends are standing up. I know who you are and if you ever read this, my appreciation has hopefully been demonstrated in real time, in real life.

If we haven't been hanging out, interacting, vibing, loving.. what is there to miss?

What I needed to do in Philadelphia has been done. What I need to do next, cannot be done here (or so I believe).

Next chapter, you're invited to and you will not be forgotten.