Showing posts with label vagabond philosopher. Show all posts
Showing posts with label vagabond philosopher. Show all posts

Monday, July 11, 2016

Don't Miss Me

I want to tell my friends not to miss me. It seems kind of cold and heartless, but to me it's practical.

More than likely, I have little if any idea why people like me or what I do for them in live face-to-face moments. It might be the way i make them feel; maybe a laugh or good company. I tend to talk a lot, maybe that's it. I've been told I'm entertaining, that could be it also. It's possible that there isn't a single it, but a combination of factors. What I call magic.

Maybe it is a matter of resonance; vibrations; the pleasure of being with like-minded people on the same frequency. Our organisms move towards pleasure and away from pain.

Maybe I can figure out what they might miss about me, by thinking about what I've been missing about them. Most of my friends are otherwise occupied with careers, relationships, academic goals, family - the usual suspects.  Many have left the area so the days of random gatherings are over. Families - as I know so well - restructure our priorities and we have to divide our time between the desires of family members and friends. Most of those goals and that lifestyle is behind me now, so I'm vibrating at a different frequency. I have more free time, more freedom and fewer people to share it with.

The Fram

Hmmm. Could be.

The point is, situations and opportunities and time are aligning to create a chance for me to get out of the city I've called home all my life. An uncomfortable home, but home nonetheless. People have told me they'd miss me and I don't know how to respond. "Thank you for saying that'? "I'll miss you too"? "I've been missing what we've been for the last several years"? Do I say that? I want to say, "Don't miss me. Everything I've been for the better part of the last decade will still be there... on the net. In social media. In status updates, selfies, and video clips." 

I'm not pointing fingers, if I were the proverbial three would be pointing at me. I'm a self-styled anti-social loner yet at the same time cherish my friends and respect their priorities. I don't throw parties or DJ events anymore and I don't invite people over to my constantly-in-renovation-mode house for cocktails or movie nights (no furniture, no TV, no video games). If I really wanted to make new friends, pursue new relationships or anything else social, it wouldn't be difficult. I'm pretty good at it, too good... and I promised myself I wouldn't get wrapped up in anything that would keep me here. That's the responsibility I take for my distance and insularity.

The Funky Luau.. a Framly Tradition

Bottom line - I'm leaving. Best friends are standing up. I know who you are and if you ever read this, my appreciation has hopefully been demonstrated in real time, in real life.

If we haven't been hanging out, interacting, vibing, loving.. what is there to miss?

What I needed to do in Philadelphia has been done. What I need to do next, cannot be done here (or so I believe).

Next chapter, you're invited to and you will not be forgotten.
 

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Life Style: A Current State

The term lifestyle and the connotations thereof fascinate me to the point of temptation toward delving into its origins and how it became a symbol of status. But I won't. This is about me and mine. Somewhat of a time capsule (and since these aren't backed up) it may end up dissolving like the oral capsule.

Note to self: Backup this series. 
Genting Highlands, Malaysia foto by Jini


Here's the current state of my lifestyle; I work, I workout and I travel... in that order. I have a handful of close friends, one of which has the time and the interests in road-tripping around for eats, looking over real estate and shopping. I'm not a big shopper, but any opportunity to get out of the city I accept. Plus, we're a lot like twins... or more accurately Yin & Yang. In that we're very similar in ideology, although we approach life and lifestyle differently to end up at the same place.

My other close friends are pursuing careers and educations and/or family lives that are satisfying them and/or preparing them for their futures. I see them occasionally. Some of them live in other states and cities, but we're still close, in that way that transcends geographical distance.

I just realized, that as with the term lifestyle each element of my life can be a blog post in its own right, so I'd best exercise some discipline on this topic.

I've worked at the same job for about 28.5 years at this point. I've never been laid off or fired. Never been out of work for any amount of time since I enlisted in the US Navy. Yeah, I'm a veteran too. I've got the age the time and the ambition to retire from this current gig. I've chosen to leave at the end of this year, however I have yet to commit to this decision. In a way I am in transition and perhaps a self-imposed limbo. I have imagined what I'll do next, but haven't planned anything specific. I don't plan - I kind of dream and let life and opportunities happen. Again, this could go off somewhere, but let's move on.
Chillin' with first born, the unexpected blessing

I live in the house grew up in. I bought the house 10 years ago from my parents, as my dad was ill (and passed in 2008). Up until that point I'd been renting from the 'rents, paying the bills and so forth. I've made a few improvements, but haven't invested too much money into it, as I don't plan to stay here. In fact the current state of the neighborhood suggests that my timing is close to perfect. I should be out by December. I have declared I will not spend another winter in Philadelphia.

I've been a dad slightly less time than I've been at the gig. This gig and my first born came along at about the same time; serendipity I'd call it as neither were planned, although I knew each could happen and remain grateful for the synchronicity. Both of my children are off pursuing their dreams, living in cities other than here, so I have a few places to visit when I wrap things up at my current location.

Number 1 Son, Following his LA dream
I exercise every day. I used to be obsessed,  now I'm addicted (committed). I'm a fitness professional in addition to what I do at the main event. I've been teaching/leading group fitness classes/sessions since 2007. I'm pretty fit, however lately I've been getting tired sooner. My Auntie immediately cited my age. I told her, "Age is the last excuse." I don't buy the conventional statistics that we slow down with age. In fact I believe the opposite. So instead of taking it easy because I feel tired and weak (relatively speaking,) I go harder and longer. I'd stopped... for some reason, working out every day and went every other day instead; which is my theory as to why I was feeling as I was. So, I went hard two days straight and already stated to feel better. Unless something extreme happens, I won't be backing off again. I had to restate my personal standards - and work up to them again. And that's all I'll say about this, (except, I'll go hard again tomorrow.)

From regional road trips to meeting internet friends around the world, I get to travel a little bit. A little bit was a fine description a few years ago. I've been able to wander and explore more and more often in the past few years. Because I'm miserly when it comes to material wealth and status, and refuse to pay for unnecessary recurring services (i.e cable TV,) I can stash airfare, train fare and bus fare away for an adventure or two annually. I am not burdened by the expenses of a motor vehicle, which is kind of a double-edged sword as I miss those events I'd surely attend if I was still driving; but oh well - we prioritize don't we? What I like least about traveling is returning. It used to be returning to Philly; now it's returning to the US. The paranoia is palpable. On my last re-entry, I was instant-photoed (the way I used to do to prisoners at the gig), then thumb-printed before I even got to the customs inspector. It was pretty smooth after that; no undercover entrapment specialist walking a beagle came to sniff my crotch after this most recent trip.

Finally, a few notes for my future self to look back on and reminisce over or laugh about, depending on how the future unfolds. I am single and don't date per se. In case there's any doubt as to my preferences, I'm not gay (not that there's anything wrong with that). I can imagine this, now classic line, will soon be coming after a declaration of heterosexuality as the future majority will be pansexual and/or polyamorous. "Straight" will mean depriving one's self of the joi de vie or the variety of what life has to offer.

More often than not I eat at home and cook my own food. I'm not a foodie, I'm not a vegan, I'm not Paleo, (but I'm closer to this than anything else), I'm not militantly organic. People, I'm happy to say, even those I've only recently met, recognize my Zen. However they mean it, I appreciate them for recognizing it.

I'm very much in transition as a human and a personality. I'm excited and a bit nervous about what comes next. I think about that day after the last day of work. As mentioned earlier I've been working for decades... probably four of them. I will probably work again. What I hope won't happen is the paper chase. I don't have ambitions of material wealth, status, or such as keeps the global economy healthily unhealthy. I picture myself as a Vagabond Philosopher teaching 6th to 8th graders about life and numbers and how the two relate; hosting meet-up groups/workshops coaching people on how to become effective and qualified group exercise instructors, or myself being a live-in personal trainer. Building houses, even if it's just hauling away the excess, for Habitat for Humanity and working on farms, whether it's in South Jersey, Wisconsin, or somewhere in India or New Zealand. I just want to keep moving, learn some good stuff, teach some good stuff, be with good people and then pass along what I've experienced.
Vagabond Philosopher, Pretty much how I envision my earth-self

If this blog lasts another decade or two, we'll all be able to witness the change - in my growth and perspective, in my attitude, and physically as well.

I think I can share this with you now. A few of you anyway.

Sometimes the spirit in me recognizes the spirit in others. What is that recognition? That we are everything that is was or will be. We are made of the same stuff as the universe because we are the universe. We are the hands on the wrists, the fingers on the hands, the nails, skin, hair, pores on the hand that's on the body that's in space-time. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

That is all.

Namaste